I wish I could say that I have had an easy few weeks, but this has been a tough battle. Today my neck is soo sore I just want to lay down but that won't help the situation so I just keep going.
Saturday however was possibly the worst day I have ever had in my life. I woke up with a pain in my side. Thinking I needed to use the restroom I used the first available (which was 2 levels down from where I was). The pain however didn't lighten up at all - it only got worse. No matter what I did. I finally called for my husband to help. With his help I was able to move a step at a time and make it up to my shower. Sadly.... since it was soo difficult to handle my pain it wore me out and I ended up sleeping the rest of the day away. Since then; it has been more difficult to hold my head up.
I was scheduled for an MRI but as I was en route the machine went down and I had to reschedule the appointment - which will need to be re-scheduled again because my kids are sick.
I'm scheduled to just have a back MRI to look at the Syrnix on my lower back, but I'm contemplating asking if I can also have a neck MRI because I'm not getting relief.
At this point in my life, I just want to be able to lift heavy weights and compete. I really truly miss it It was one of the things I was good at and that my family enjoyed sharing with me.
There are many (Too Many) times that I feel lost. Not lost in thought as I would love to be, but lost. I'm a shell of the person that I used to be. There is no question in my mind - I am a different person trying to regain what I have loved my whole life. I don't know who I am any longer - and trying to explain this to others is extremely difficult. I look healthy, I pretend to be happy around other people, I'm told I look like myself - like I look put together - but on the inside; I am no where near either of those things.
I'm going to have to stop here, because I am having a hard time keeping my thoughts in check while I type.
Have a blessed day!!
Saturday however was possibly the worst day I have ever had in my life. I woke up with a pain in my side. Thinking I needed to use the restroom I used the first available (which was 2 levels down from where I was). The pain however didn't lighten up at all - it only got worse. No matter what I did. I finally called for my husband to help. With his help I was able to move a step at a time and make it up to my shower. Sadly.... since it was soo difficult to handle my pain it wore me out and I ended up sleeping the rest of the day away. Since then; it has been more difficult to hold my head up.
I was scheduled for an MRI but as I was en route the machine went down and I had to reschedule the appointment - which will need to be re-scheduled again because my kids are sick.
I'm scheduled to just have a back MRI to look at the Syrnix on my lower back, but I'm contemplating asking if I can also have a neck MRI because I'm not getting relief.
At this point in my life, I just want to be able to lift heavy weights and compete. I really truly miss it It was one of the things I was good at and that my family enjoyed sharing with me.
There are many (Too Many) times that I feel lost. Not lost in thought as I would love to be, but lost. I'm a shell of the person that I used to be. There is no question in my mind - I am a different person trying to regain what I have loved my whole life. I don't know who I am any longer - and trying to explain this to others is extremely difficult. I look healthy, I pretend to be happy around other people, I'm told I look like myself - like I look put together - but on the inside; I am no where near either of those things.
I'm going to have to stop here, because I am having a hard time keeping my thoughts in check while I type.
Have a blessed day!!
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