HI!!
Welcome to my Blog!!
I have so many people telling me that I should write - write about my life, my daughter's life, just life in general. I hear it all the time - You Can't Make this Shit up! Well - Let me tell you - I CAN'T make this up!
The primary purpose of me starting this blog is a place to talk about my fibromyalgia openly and honestly. I'm also going to be posting about reviews that I do. Hopefully at some time I will be able to do giveaways also - but.... one thing at a time.
Let's start at the beginning and how I got to where I am today.
Almost 3 years ago my kids and I were driving home and we were rear-ended. This caused me to get knocked out and our van to go circling down the road until we stopped. I awoke to see a car coming towards us and the lake in front of us. I was again knocked out - neither time being able to hear my children and only hearing crunching and cracking. I again awoke to beg my girl (my van) not to let them go into the water - to just Please stop. As I was pumping what I hoped was the break with both feet. I awoke again to silence - I couldn't hear, couldnt't see.....
It was like the movies - the scene where the mom freaks out because she sees bubbles and can't hear anything - that's what it was like. Only worse because it was MY kids - not some actresses... I remembered that the headrest would get me out if I needed - but somehow I was already out and screaming because I wasn't in the water! I was soo happy!! I wanted to check on my son because he got the 2nd (or 3rd) impact. That's when I saw it - puddles and puddles - growing larger and larger. My fear! I was on the outside and my kids were on the inside! I rushed - screaming to my son, I couldn't hear him - only see his little arms. He was already out of his seat jumping towards me. Then another set of cars (2 or 3) crashed behind my van! I couldn't handle it. All I could do was scream
During this, I pocket dialed my boss. She was on the phone when my van was being crumpled and my children were beyond frightened. She was listening as I was being knocked out - unsure what was happening - only hearing screaming. She was at the hospital with 20 minutes of us arriving.
My husband got to us and helped find my purse which held all of our insurance information. My daughter could no longer hear because the force of the impacts blew the tubing and brains of her hearing aids out - leaving only her plugs in. Since they were clear - medical staff in the ER didn't find them when I was coherent enough. I removed them the following day.
My Father in Law stayed at home at my advise. There was nothing for him to do, I knew I would need him later and he needs his rest.
It was one of the Worst days of my life.
I am still suffering everyday because of an "accident". I will never truly know why she rear-ended us that night. I had driven that road multiple times a week if not a day for the previous 3 years. I stayed back and followed the instructions that were placed in my head soo soo many years ago during driving school. Now I fear that road - I fear that another person will come out of their lane, or will be too close to me and won't be able to stop, or they will be on their phone.
I have since been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. If you don't know what it is; it is the farthest thing from a walk in the park. It is awful. Right now - I am forcing myself to type so taht I can get my throughts out of my head before they run away into the Fibro Fog.
My hands are swollen, but look normal to the naked eye. It is hard to move them and no amount of "moving" "Stretching" or "water intake" has done anything to help this.
My neck is soo tight that it hurts to look from one side to the other and my back feels like someone is trying to bend me in half - All..... The... Time.
You might say that Fibro is a joke - no one has it - it's all in your head.
Believe me ------ It's Not in my head.
Before the accident I Had my own 2nd hand shop, was an office manager, was advancing in the martial arts as well as working towards competing.
I was always on the go and Loved being around people having a good time.
Now.....
I want to go to bed.....
I hurt
Every...... Day
Every.......Damn.......Day.
There has not been a day since the accident that I haven't been in some sort of pain. I say some sort because it rotates around my body. That's the "fun" part of my fibro - is that one day my hands will be the worst where the next it will be my arms, or legs, or knees, or head, or a combination of the before mentioned.
So.....
Welcome to my blog.
Some days will be worse than others - some will be full of fibro fog - some will be nothing at all.
Since the accident I have closed my shop, so have started trying to find my niche. As I get my reviews typed I will list them here also.
Hope to see you soon!
Welcome to my Blog!!
I have so many people telling me that I should write - write about my life, my daughter's life, just life in general. I hear it all the time - You Can't Make this Shit up! Well - Let me tell you - I CAN'T make this up!
The primary purpose of me starting this blog is a place to talk about my fibromyalgia openly and honestly. I'm also going to be posting about reviews that I do. Hopefully at some time I will be able to do giveaways also - but.... one thing at a time.
Let's start at the beginning and how I got to where I am today.
Almost 3 years ago my kids and I were driving home and we were rear-ended. This caused me to get knocked out and our van to go circling down the road until we stopped. I awoke to see a car coming towards us and the lake in front of us. I was again knocked out - neither time being able to hear my children and only hearing crunching and cracking. I again awoke to beg my girl (my van) not to let them go into the water - to just Please stop. As I was pumping what I hoped was the break with both feet. I awoke again to silence - I couldn't hear, couldnt't see.....
It was like the movies - the scene where the mom freaks out because she sees bubbles and can't hear anything - that's what it was like. Only worse because it was MY kids - not some actresses... I remembered that the headrest would get me out if I needed - but somehow I was already out and screaming because I wasn't in the water! I was soo happy!! I wanted to check on my son because he got the 2nd (or 3rd) impact. That's when I saw it - puddles and puddles - growing larger and larger. My fear! I was on the outside and my kids were on the inside! I rushed - screaming to my son, I couldn't hear him - only see his little arms. He was already out of his seat jumping towards me. Then another set of cars (2 or 3) crashed behind my van! I couldn't handle it. All I could do was scream
During this, I pocket dialed my boss. She was on the phone when my van was being crumpled and my children were beyond frightened. She was listening as I was being knocked out - unsure what was happening - only hearing screaming. She was at the hospital with 20 minutes of us arriving.
My husband got to us and helped find my purse which held all of our insurance information. My daughter could no longer hear because the force of the impacts blew the tubing and brains of her hearing aids out - leaving only her plugs in. Since they were clear - medical staff in the ER didn't find them when I was coherent enough. I removed them the following day.
My Father in Law stayed at home at my advise. There was nothing for him to do, I knew I would need him later and he needs his rest.
It was one of the Worst days of my life.
I am still suffering everyday because of an "accident". I will never truly know why she rear-ended us that night. I had driven that road multiple times a week if not a day for the previous 3 years. I stayed back and followed the instructions that were placed in my head soo soo many years ago during driving school. Now I fear that road - I fear that another person will come out of their lane, or will be too close to me and won't be able to stop, or they will be on their phone.
I have since been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. If you don't know what it is; it is the farthest thing from a walk in the park. It is awful. Right now - I am forcing myself to type so taht I can get my throughts out of my head before they run away into the Fibro Fog.
My hands are swollen, but look normal to the naked eye. It is hard to move them and no amount of "moving" "Stretching" or "water intake" has done anything to help this.
My neck is soo tight that it hurts to look from one side to the other and my back feels like someone is trying to bend me in half - All..... The... Time.
You might say that Fibro is a joke - no one has it - it's all in your head.
Believe me ------ It's Not in my head.
Before the accident I Had my own 2nd hand shop, was an office manager, was advancing in the martial arts as well as working towards competing.
I was always on the go and Loved being around people having a good time.
Now.....
I want to go to bed.....
I hurt
Every...... Day
Every.......Damn.......Day.
There has not been a day since the accident that I haven't been in some sort of pain. I say some sort because it rotates around my body. That's the "fun" part of my fibro - is that one day my hands will be the worst where the next it will be my arms, or legs, or knees, or head, or a combination of the before mentioned.
So.....
Welcome to my blog.
Some days will be worse than others - some will be full of fibro fog - some will be nothing at all.
Since the accident I have closed my shop, so have started trying to find my niche. As I get my reviews typed I will list them here also.
Hope to see you soon!
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